What do we do now?

So Friday has arrived and normally this would be the time to look forward to the weekend, predict the scores and speculate about what the weekend holds in store for the Bluebirds.


Not today.


I feel guilty about the fact that time is marching on and the search has ended.  A tear-stained press conference yesterday between Romina Sala (Emiliano's sister) and the press culminated in a heart wrenching appeal for the search to continue.


Who amongst us would be content to see our family member disappear into the night and to stop searching for them after just three days?


The sad reality is not many people truly expects them to be found alive now and perhaps this is the greatest tragedy of all.  At the very least I want the plane and passengers to be located so the friends and families can say goodbye.


The nearly nature of this whole story is what makes it so tragic, he nearly made it to the Premier League, he nearly fulfilled his dream.


I'm left with a constant stream of "what if?" questions running through my mind, inevitably followed by the reminder that fundamentally it changes nothing.


The football family has traversed many a tragedy and the sport will overcome this one too, sadly this is not something we can say for the friends and families involved.


May we never forget the best Bluebird to never play for our club.

Tell me what to do

It's 13:54 on Wednesday the 24.01 and it's been over two days since my first post and despite prayers and hope otherwise there is still no trace of either the airplane or passengers Emiliano Sala and David Ibbotson.


Can someone tell me what to do because right now I have no idea.




The sky outside my office is the dullest shade of grey and the general sick feeling in the pit of my stomach continues to murmur away like distant thunder.  Shock has turned to sadness and now abject sorrow.


The football has definitely taken the furthest seat away from me right now, honestly why do we care so much about a game when people's lives have probably been lost and families destroyed. 


The sad truth is, at some point the football will become important again and that sense of perspective will be gone all over again.


I sat here at my desk listening to a ten minute interview between Talksport's Jim White and the Cardiff City chief executive Ken Choo with tears in my eyes.  To hear the strain in his voice and appreciate the multi-faceted tragedy that he has been tasked with somehow steering Cardiff City makes one appreciate just how tough this has been on Cardiff City Football Club in general.


We stand and fall together as a family and right now we are down.  We will rise again one day but right now the punch has only just landed and it still feels like we're falling.


May we learn the news we are all desperate to learn sooner rather than later and may Mr Sala and Mr Ibbotson's families know that no matter what happens, we are for them and with them every step of the way.